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27 May 2015 @ 03:32 pm
Lazy days of summer?  
Guess it's time for a personal post. There really hasn't been anything to say recently. My life is fairly regular. But big things are happening.

Most notably, school lets out soon. The kids' last day is next Thursday. Only one more week of freedom! That means, after Thursday, no more midday naps, no more running personal errands by myself, no more sanity!! If this summer is like every summer past, I see long months filled with bickering, tattling, and arguing. Don't get me wrong, I love the kids. As individuals, they're so much fun, very loving, and great little conversationalist. As a group??? They're holy terrors!

And my sister started a full-time job yesterday. I'm thrilled for her. She deserves a job that'll give her the hours she needs and the pay she earned. Her last job was a wonderful place to work, but they couldn't give her what she needed to support her family. I'm going to miss her, though. Her working full-time means that she won't be around to help anymore. In the past, she was here often to help buffer and take on some of the stress with the kids. And since they're her kids, not mine, they listen to her better anyway. So I'm a wee bit nervous about the upcoming summer. And I just miss having her around to hang out. She's my best friend for a reason. She's kinda awesome.

On the upside, Sis has signed the girls up for a summer day camp. We haven't heard back yet, though. I'm crossing my fingers that they get in. That would occupy 3 of the 5 younguns. There's also a possible something for the oldest boy, a day camp for autistic kids, that she's looking into. So there's the potential that I could be left with only 1 kid during a day. A little boy who would probably feel left out with his brother and sisters in day camp all summer. Poor little guy. I've got some fun things planned for just the two of us if it comes to it.

But sis' job? It sounds kinda great. She's nervous about it since she's not very experienced with computers and complex databases. But I am! I'm working to get my health back quickly. She's going to put my name in at the next opportunity to try and get me into the company. I want to work again so badly! My self-esteem is beginning to suffer without a job, a purpose. Watching sis' kids is fun and all, but I'm ready for a bigger challenge. Or at least a different one.

That's all I can think of. Hey, are there any cool memes floating around? Now that I'm back (for as long as it lasts) I could use something to post about.
tracys_dreamtracys_dream on May 27th, 2015 09:23 pm (UTC)
Your sister's new job sounds good and it would be awesome if it could lead to a job for you as well!
Good luck with the kids. I used to take of my young cousin and I loved it but sometimes it was quite hard work, especially when she had friends round.
Good luck with everything!
Wynefredwynefred on May 28th, 2015 12:58 pm (UTC)
Her job really does seem cool. She's overwhelmed right now, but I'm confident she can do it. She's very smart.

And yeah, I'd love to work somewhere... anywhere... again. It'd be awesome if she could get me in. I've got to get into better shape, though. That's on me.

Yeah, watching kids is hard. The most difficult part is keeping my temper. These kids know exactly how to push my buttons! But I still love them. Can't help myself. Heh.
tracys_dreamtracys_dream on May 28th, 2015 06:20 pm (UTC)
supernutjapansupernutjapan on May 27th, 2015 11:16 pm (UTC)
And you have such loooong summer holidays too! Hope the kids get into the day camps!

We only get a month or so of holidays here in Japan, and I'm working for at least half of that so I don't have much of a chance to be at home with the kids. Audrey loves to go out and play with her friends in the courtyard of our condo or the park nearby and the boys usually just lounge around reading or playing games when they are not at their school sports club activities (which they have all summer) But Julian(14) and Audrey(7) are always fighting - so I know what that's like :P
Wynefredwynefred on May 28th, 2015 01:08 pm (UTC)
Wow. Only a month? Sometimes I wish our breaks were shorter. The kids seem to lose so much of the information during summer. I always try to homeschool them a bit in the summer just to keep them fresh on the basics.

They're my sister's kids. Susi (10) and Kori (7) really don't get along at all. The others bicker some, but these two make a point of getting under each other's skin. I'm sure you do know what it's like. :D
stiang: Community: Jeff/Troy Thumbs Upstiang on May 28th, 2015 05:47 am (UTC)
HEEEEY!!! I'm back too, kind of! It's been awhile. *waves*

Yay for your sister on her new job, sounds like a challenge (in a good way). You are definitely brave for watching so many children. :P

I hope you get healthy soon and that I hear more from you in the near future! :D
Wynefredwynefred on May 28th, 2015 01:10 pm (UTC)
Hi!!! I haven't seen you in forever! *waves back*

I wouldn't call it brave. Extremely selfless, generous, and giving? Sure! Yeah, I'm so humble it hurts! Heehee.

Thanks! Glad to see you back!
Dizzojay's Dean Dreamsdizzojay on May 28th, 2015 08:32 pm (UTC)
Sounds like lots of cool stuff going on in your life at the moment!
It's great to have you back in the fold here on Lj x
Wynefredwynefred on June 2nd, 2015 04:00 am (UTC)
Yep, lots of cool stuff. Summer always means changes here. Before I moved in with my sister and her family, summer days were just like any other, except hotter. Now, things are always hoppin'! :D

milly_galmilly_gal on May 29th, 2015 07:20 am (UTC)
Your sisters new job sounds very cool and hopefully you'll get something out of it too *hugs* as for the kids, the day camp sounds like it could very well keep you on the sanity straight and narrow. I know lots of people give mums this look *O_O* when they say that their kids being home from school for Summer is a brain ache, but it *is* and there's no shame in that!

wish your sister luck from me and *LUCK* to you hun!
Wynefredwynefred on June 2nd, 2015 04:10 am (UTC)
Thanks Milly! My sister is really enjoying her new job. She's been there only a week and already she's working independently when the other gal who started the same day still needs constant monitoring. I'm really proud of her! I knew she was smarter than she gave herself credit for.

Yeah, kids can easily drive adults nuts. I have a hard time believing moms who say that they never get stressed with their kids around. Either they're not telling the whole truth (which is possible) or they're a whole lot more patient than I am (which is also eminently possible). Heh.

Edited at 2015-06-02 04:11 am (UTC)
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 16th, 2015 04:49 pm (UTC)
I don't envy you one bit dealing with munchkins for the summer. Not having them around me at all, I have low tolerance for the craziness that comes with kids. I hope you have an enjoyable summer with them nonetheless.

I do understand you wanting to get back to work and feel that purpose. The times I have been unemployed, that is one of the hardest things to deal with, is the feeling of uselessness and want of sense of purpose. Not that you don't get it with the kids, no greater purpose, IMHO, but there is something about being out in the workforce, a feeling that you really can't feel anyway else. I hope you are able to secure something sooner rather than later. Good luck.
Wynefredwynefred on June 16th, 2015 05:01 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I know you understand. You've been through it yourself more than once. But you made it through, yes?

It's mainly feeling smart that I miss. My brain has atrophied after so long without stimulation and challenge. And when people hear that I'm unemployed or that I watch kids for a "living", they treat me differently. Not that I should judge myself based on what other people think, but it's hard not to.

Dang it, I used to supervise a team of data analysts! It was difficult, mentally grueling work, and I was GOOD at it! I was one of only a handful of people in the WORLD who could do that job. Now I'm an unemployed nobody. Not for long, though. Not if I can do anything about it. No more sitting around whining. Time to get off my butt and make a difference.

Sorry. I got a fire lit under me this morning. Still riding it. You got the backlash from it.
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 16th, 2015 05:10 pm (UTC)
I liked your fire. Good for you. Take that and run with it when you can because we don't always have that firey feeling. I did make it through my bouts of unemployment. Thankfully.

I also understand the brain atrophying, which is why so many retirees find themselves suffering strokes or getting dementia or some other brain thing is because they no longer use their brain/mind the way they used to when they were working. We always need to find ways to challenge our minds no matter where they are. I do think retirement was one of the reasons my dad acquired dementia. He wasn't using his mind the way he used to, and that scares me for my future. I hate dementia, such a cruel disease. So, you get your brain kicking again and do what you need to do to get you back in the work force.
Wynefredwynefred on June 16th, 2015 05:22 pm (UTC)
Yep. My grandmother died after many years with Alzheimer's. Dementia really is a cruel disease.

Yes ma'am! Working on it! One step is to get myself able to walk longer distances. My sister's office is a very long way from the employee parking lot. Currently, I'd never make it. Can't take a job if I can't even walk into the office.
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 16th, 2015 05:28 pm (UTC)
Alzheimer's dementia is a very cruel disease, all dementia/alzheimer's related illnesses are. It was painful to watch my dad go from the vital smart man that he was to someone who could barely put a sentence together. My last time with him he was more lucid that I had seen him before, so that is a blessed memory for me.

Definitely need to get that walking going. What a great time to do it too. You have the summer months, take the kiddies for a walk, get your exercise in, get them tuckered out, and you increase your stamina all in one.
Wynefredwynefred on June 16th, 2015 05:33 pm (UTC)
Exactly (for both)!

I'm glad you were able to have those last moments with your dad. That's so heartbreakingly precious. I don't have that with my grandmother. She stopped recognizing me early on. I became one of her nieces, one of her brothers' kids though she didn't know which one, some nameless family member. At least she recognized me as family.
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 16th, 2015 06:00 pm (UTC)
Yes, at least your grandma did still recognize you as family. That is the way my mother is right now. When you go visit, she recognizes you as family, loved ones, but I don't think she recognizes anything further beyond that. She doesn't communicate at all, but when you leave she gets all weepy and cries a lot, which is really hard for me, which is why my visits to her are very infrequent lately.
Wynefredwynefred on June 16th, 2015 06:22 pm (UTC)
Oh wow, that's rough. And to go through it with two parents. *HUGS*
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 16th, 2015 06:26 pm (UTC)
Its been hard to live through it with dad, and now mom. We think that taking care of dad all those years really took a toll on her and once he died she was never the same, and she has gone steadily downhill ever since. Every now and then she'll say something or maybe kinda sorta answer a question, but mostly she is locked inside her mind.
Wynefredwynefred on June 19th, 2015 09:34 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry, E. That has to be difficult. Do you have a good support system? Family who can help carry some of the burden?
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 19th, 2015 09:52 pm (UTC)
It is hard to see my mother in this condition. Because of it I rarely visit her anymore. I'm just not in a strong enough emotional place to handle watching my mother like that and then having her cry out when you leave, and listen to her begging us not to go. Can't do it. I have my brothers, but we are all carrying around a lot of our own personal burdens right now that I don't want to go to them to help with my own, so, right now, I'm basically on my own dealing with it all.
Wynefredwynefred on June 19th, 2015 09:56 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry. Your decision is understandable, but I feel for you. At least I had lots of support when we went through this with my grandmother. *hugs*
Wynefredwynefred on June 19th, 2015 09:57 pm (UTC)
And I don't think I'm doing a thing to cheer you up. What can I do to help?
metallidean_grlmetallidean_grl on June 23rd, 2015 05:17 pm (UTC)
You are doing fine sweetie. I just like talking to friends. That is the one thing that helps to ground me. I have anxiety attacks on a more regular basis, so just being able to go back and forth on occasion helps to alleviate that.